Daydreaming and Reality

and the loneliness that resides

I am sitting alone in my room, thinking about what to write next, which topic to obsess over and I am not able to garner any good thoughts in my brain. ( Too bad they wont come to me when I need them, but continue to create a DJ party in my head each night.)

Anyways, after a lot of pondering , here I am struck with a thought about- “Daydreaming and Reality”

Have you ever in middle of a conversation zoned out? Have you ever thought about something entirely else while doing something entirely diffrent? Are you a victim of stories or perhaps a chef, cooking up creative ancedotes?

If yes, then you’re just like me, a daydreamer and also a storyteller.A person willing to stay in their mind often, just to escape the reality, the future.

Yet, thoughts seclude you sometimes,there is a loneliness that engulfs you when you are alone with your thoughts and nothing else. Thoughts can be harsh sometimes causing you to transform from a storyteller to an overthinker but other times they’re a figment of your imaginary world, and that’s okay because you should be able to keep yourself company when you’re alone.

I always feel there is a subtle difference between being alone and being lonely. Former is better.

// Alone, but never lonely//

Akele aaye the akele jaoge,

Kabhi kabhi bheed mai bhi khudko akela paoge…

Kabhi kabhi bheed mai bhi khudko akela paoge…

Amidst the flood of thoughts, we often forget that “we are living in the future we were so scared about once.”

I asked my mom if I'll be able to make art once I go to college, like I do now, like for 5 hours straight.

She said you won't be able to spend much time to it though, college is tiring and I know she's right but what about those ‘apparent adults’ whom I see on social media sites partying, going out, staying in, studying, doing Internships and what not. I wonder do they think about the hobbies they once had? Do they still do them or have lost touch with their hobbies? Do they regret it, or have moved on to another hobby?

All these questions overflow my mind, questions about the future. But, now I have realized (better late than never) that only present is in our hands. So we must do what we want to do, stay sane, and a bit insane! Life's fun that way.

I've learnt to not have second thoughts on what anyone else says, if you feel in your heart you’re right and you’ll be happy after doing something, then you should do it.

"What others think about you is not as important as what you think about yourself."

Listen to your heart, do what's right.

Somedays are just nice days, you get that perfect cup of chai in an uncanny rainy weather when it's supposed to be touching 45° c, you make that perfect art by trusting the process, and you finally find that TV series on a secret website.

Somedays are just not that nice but instead of worrying about the future on that day, tainted with a ‘bad -day’ mark, live through the present. Take what’s needed, leave the rest. Life will be good again.

Somedays are just amazing, you finally found a photo booth near your place, even though they went seemingly out of fashion years back and you can't wait to live in the past again, except now it is your present and you're so happy about it!!!

Here's a poem I wrote, perhaps it'll make you stop worrying and start living- in the present!

A ray of hope, a beam of life;
uplifts the soul 
from the melancholy, in time.

Entwined in darkness are our souls
Pour some love,
let the happiness unfold.

Bestow us with gifts 
which won’t cost.
It is certainly,
the smile we had lost.

Through the sorrows and the mysteries untold.
There’s a path for us to behold.
With a little bit of this and a little bit of that,
we always carve, our way back.

For, the ray of hope
is always found.
Even when the darkness 
is so profound.

Until the next<3